Where art though?....Oh Shepherd...

where art Thou? oh Shepherd!
i've been looking for Thee, all day.
where art Thou? oh Shepherd!
i seem to have lost my way.

where art Thou? oh Shepherd!
wouldn't Thee take me to my fodder?
where art Thou? oh Shepherd!
doesn't Thee, wince at my hunger?


i know i 've come of age, i know i've run out of wool.
dumb i may seem, but i can understand things, i ain't no fool.
what made Thou let go of me,what made Thou to set me free;
could nothing else be, but Thy love for me.

long back, Thou stood by me, when they said, that i was the black one.
yesterday, Thou held me firm, knowing, that i was their chosen one.
i know, oh shepherd, Thou was left with no option.
Thou, had, either to let go of me, or see me, be their mutton.

Though led me away from murder, in that cold silent darkness;
Though left me to wander, in this strange, hostile wilderness.
tell me oh Wise One, the logic in setting these old limbs free?
when, since their time began, their destiny has been Thee.

come back MY Shepherd and take me Home.
i'd rather be cut in Thine Kingdom, than wither away in this freedom.
i wish to graze, to gaze one more time into Thine Holy Eyes.
i wish to play, to pray one last time, in Thine Paradise...

................................AMEN





Epilogue-- Has God (if there happens to be one), ever erred to fall in love with a life, and, sinned to spare it, of the agony of dying(if at all dying is an agony).

Or does Death, the inevitable, lie beyond the Realm of the Almighty??

Drunk Slob

What's true and what's a lie
Who am I; to decide (laugh)

What gives pleasure and what pain
To dictate this, I could even 've slain(laugh)

But then, I once said,"I'm nonviolent"
So I bear it all, oh so silent(laugh)

Oh this empty hole, more than deep; makes me feel so numb
It's so dark, so cold; can't tell what's finger,what's thumb(laugh)

On this day of joy, why am I so few a peg down?
'Coz I feel you don't like it, every single time I frown(laugh)

Don't hide that smile, I know I am wrong
Look in my eyes; you'll know, I knew it all along(laugh)

"Why a life of illusions?", you'll pity;All i can say is, "'coz I love my spirit
Living by the facts; I fear might kill it"(laugh)

Someone today came up with;"How will you like to die?"
A drunkard with no shame, would have yelled, "Kill me as you wish, all I ask for, is one lie."(laugh)

A moment of deceit, an eternity of illusion
"Can you flirt with guile; make one fake confession?"(laugh)

None else, can it be you who says,
"There was a moment, when the winds blew both ways
What my lungs breathed in, was, your love in the air"; just a moment, of those long, lengthy days!!(laugh)

What am I doing? Asking truth to lie?
From where has come this con? I never was so, so sly

I loved that nerd
Know what, I even love this drunkard(laugh)

Who drinks; to whisper,
"Nothing's true, there is no lie
Baby, it's all in that freaking eye... "

(don't you laugh, i didn't mean it to be so funny :-) )

Good Morning...

You wake up at 6 in the morning.It's so quiet and cold.The sun is about to rise.You get a cold cup of milk from the fridge.You sit at your window and sip in the milk.There's a gentle breeze which says hello to you as it passes by.You haven't brushed your teeth and the bitter taste that the milk takes due to the saliva that accumulated in ur mouth all night is better than any of the chocolates you have ever had.You can see a dog lazing around from your window.
There is a pigeon that's sitting just on your window sill.Its' eyes are closed.
How come it didn't notice you??
How come it didn't fly away??
Must be in real deep sleep.
But you want to believe, that it trusts you and that it's there because it believes you 've got nothing wrong at heart.
Nothing that means any harm.
Whatever may it be, it feels so good to imagine that you still have got that little bit of innocence left in you.That human touch which seems so non human.
There ain't no more milk to sip in.
You stretch your tongue right into the cup and are about to lick that last drop that seems to have fallen in love with the cup.Your tongue stops.
You don't wanna force that drop, do you?You let that drop remain.
The leaves of the tree that has grown right upto your window are rustling.The dog seems to enjoy this music.The tree seems to be dancing on the beats of the breeze.
It stops the early rays from making it to the dog's eyes as it sways in the breeze.When the breeze takes rest, the rays knock at those muddy eyelids.You wonder if they'd have to open???
You wish they don't have to.That's when the breeze starts to sing again.The tree starts to dance again.The dog can dream on for some more time.It's a good dream.You are sure.
There is a smile on its face.



What the hell. You start wondering if you are going crazy.
You think.
Dogs don't smile.
Rite??


You lick that last drop of milk.
The pigeon flies away.
The breeze stops.......
The tree ain't swaying no more.
The dog wakes up, is it frowning??
What the hell........
What can't smile, can't frown.


Return to normalcy.
Return to logic.
GOOD MORNING........

Loss of thoughts

Is sweet bitter?
Or, is worse better??

Are eyes, to see the disguise??
Or, as they presume, are they wise??

Are excuses,the purpose of this face??
Or, are they just for, what it can't face??

Is there actually a reason??
Or, is that gaze too searching for one??

Reason.......Reason....
Have none.....Find one......

Is there more to you, than you show??Than you know??
Or,is the little that you do, too a show??

Is it worth the pain, to hang on to a hope??
Or, as wiser ones have, better to cut the rope and dope??

Are you, my reason to survive??
Or, reason enough to die??

Don't lie.....Don't lie......
All die.......... Don't lie.......


Is this a journey?Is there a destination?
Or, is life just an illusion?
Truth, but an illusion??

For an age, these eyes, they thought they could see through..................
Oh!!!! There was nothing called you...

Illusion........illusion.....
Treason.........Treason......

Now they stare into the horizon........
That moist, that hazy, that setting sun....

Loss of reason.........
Treason....Treason....

Should they search one???
Reason......Reason......
Or,is reason an illusion??
Treason.....Treason......

Life..........an illusion....
Truth.......an illusion.......
IS DEATH TOO ONE?????